Monday, May 9, 2016

I'm back

Oh hey...

I've been quiet on here for so long, it's not that I haven't wanted to write or that I didn't have anything to say, its just I didn't write. I didn't make time for it and for whatever reason I've resisted writing. 

In the past year I had my baby boy! He's amazing and Kbeaner is the best big sister! 

Matt and I  got married!

We moved back near family, which I think has been one of the best choices we have ever made.

But I'm sure thats not really what you guys want to hear about...I'm sure youre wondering about my weight and health. (Which to be honest is probably why I havent written in so long).

I gained way too much weight in my pregnancy with Jet. I made some attempts to stay healthy and exercise but I mostly took advantage of my pregnancy to eat what I wanted and be lazy.

The day I gave birth to Jet I weighed 240 lbs.

Today I weigh... 240 lbs.

Haven't lost an ounce in almost a year. I am thankful I didn't gain but after breastfeeding for over a year I'm slightly disappointed that the weight didn't fall off like it does for so many.

I am determined to get back to a healthy weight and mindset. I realized I NEED to start writing again, even though I'm embarrassed that I let myself get so heavy again, I know that writing on my blog will keep me accountable and hopefully will help someone else.

So here it goes... check back soon for more..

Sunday, January 4, 2015

The Great Breastfeeding Debate

Before I get started, I want to make it very clear... this is only my opinion and my story, I'm not saying one way of feeding your baby is better than the other. I honestly feel that whether you choose breast or formula or a combination moms are making their best choice for themselves and their baby. All the judging needs to stop.

I am almost 100% positive that everyone knows all the amazing benefits of breast feeding. Yes it is the best option, IF it works for you and your baby. Feeding your baby formula, will not kill them, it will not make them sickly and ruin their chances for the rest of their lives. Maybe formula does not have all of the benefits of breast feeding, but it will feed your child and give them the nutrients they need! Which HELLO is pretty important! 

When I was pregnant with KBeaner I was sure I was going to breastfeed, I was so excited to be able to do it, and give the best for my daughter. I had seen my sister with her son, she was a breastfeeding pro and it seemed to come so easily, I just assumed it was easy for everyone. No one really talks about it being difficult or that some people can't do it. 

After giving birth, they gave me KBeaner to breastfeed her, its odd because there are all these nurses grabbing at your breasts telling you how to hold the baby and position yourself. Of course it seemed like every nurse told me to do it differently. Everything seemed fine and then we left the hospital. 

KBeaner wasn't gaining enough weight and wasn't having a lot of wet diapers. I started pumping and attempting to breastfeed. Her pediatrician referred me to a local lactation consultant and nurse who would come to our house. That woman was amazing, she was so kind and supportive and helped me understand that just because I had to start supplementing with formula did not make me a bad mom.

I cried the day I gave KBeaner formula not because I was upset I was giving her formula but I realized how she was not thriving as well on breast feeding. I had never seen her so alert, I realized she was lethargic before. 

You see all these super glamorous pictures of celebs breast feeding, and even regular people breast feeding making it seem so easy. It's beautiful and does an amazing job promoting breast feeding but I feel like it  gives women an unrealistic expectation. 

You don't see PSAs talking about how some women cannot breast feed, or how they struggle with it, how no matter how hard they try sometimes it just does not work.

I tried to breastfeed, then pump and supplement with formula when she didn't seem to get enough for over a month, until I realized how depressed I was. I spoke with my doctor and decided that the best options for me and my daughter were to go on medication and to stop breastfeeding. I was upset but knew that me being depressed was not going to help anyone.

Fast forward almost five years and I have an incredibly healthy, happy, and intelligent daughter. I know now I made the best decision for her and myself. I wish that there was more information out there on how it's alright if you can't breastfeed, or even if you choose not to. It does not make you a horrible mother, you need to pick the best option for you and your family.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Thanksgiving Turkey Countdown

The other day KBeaner and I were talking about how long until Thanksgiving. I thought of making a chain, but then an idea popped in my head, why not make a Turkey countdown, where each day you take away a feather! I found out later that day, we used to do this when I was a little kid, for whatever reason I don't  remember doing that at all!

What you'll need:
brown construction paper (for head and body)
2 pieces of white paper (you could use construction if you want)
glue stick

First draw a large circle and a smaller circle on your brown construction paper.
While KBeaner was cutting those out I started drawing the feathers and labeling them with numbers. (when I made this we had 13 days until thanksgiving.) I also drew the face of the turkey.

Next I had KBeaner color them to her hearts desire!

After you're done coloring, cut out the feathers and the face and start gluing together your bird together.
And that's it! Now you have a Thanksgiving Turkey Countdown!!! Leave pictures of your Turkey's in the comments below!

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Big news!!

Hey guys! Sorry I've been MIA for so long, this summer has gotten busy and hectic and for most of the beginning of the summer I was not feeling my best.


I'm pregnant!! 14 weeks!!

Here is an announcement KBeaner wrote to let everyone know she is going to be a big sister! She is so happy and is hoping it will be a little sister.
Now that I am feeling better and vegetables actually sound good again, I am trying very hard to eat mostly healthy. It is HARD! I thought it was hard before, yeah right! haha.

I'll try to update more often and get back to my schedule! Hope you've all had amazing summer so far! 

Monday, June 23, 2014

Manic Monday

Hey sorry I've been MIA lately, just haven't felt like writing that much.

I maintained this week again. I'm happy with it, I didn't always make the best choices, but I did start working out again. I decided I'd start up with what I did when I first started my weight loss journey. I've been doing the Pop Pilates Challenges from Blogilates. They are only a few minutes long so I can do them through out the day. 

I have decided I'm not going to stress about the scale anymore. I feel like I just keep maintaining which is awesome but I still get stressed out about it. From now on each week I am going to work on a different healthy behavior, instead of concentrating on the number on the scale. 

This week I am working on two. Drinking 64 oz of water, and cutting back on coffee. I realized that I am drinking way too many unneeded calories between the milk and sugar I put in my coffee. 

This is what I have for meals this week...

  • Cilantro Lime Bean Salad with healthy Tuna Melts
  • Healthy Pizza
  • Leftover Salsa Chicken (crockpot) with rice and veggies
  • Homemade skinny big mac and fries
  • Chicken Tacos
  • Leftovers
What's on your meal plan this week?

Monday, June 2, 2014

Manic Monday

 Hey! It's Manic Monday where I team up with 3 of my blogger friends, keep ourselves accountable and share our meal plans.  BTW can you believe I'm actually posting on a Monday!?! 
Make sure to check out my friends AngelaLaura and Hollie's blogs too!

I maintained this week, I think because I went to a local theme park twice this weekend, so I did a lot of walking, and had a ton of fun! 

KBeaner had so much fun!! We bought the season pass so we can go as much as we'd like all summer long. I'm happy we did that since one we'll save money but also I don't feel guilty if we only go for a few hours. I noticed that my 4 year old does not do well with so much excitement after a couple hours. 
 KBeaner just *HAD* to wear all black, the night before she told me she was going to where all black the next day, I figured she'd forget about it, nope! She was obsessed with being in all black, and even argued with me about wearing sneakers with her outfit since they were not all black! I can't even begin to imagine what it will be like when she is a teenager.. what a little fashionista!
After the second trip, she was exhausted from all the fun!

This week I recieved a TLC Vox Box from (for free woop woop). It came with Ivory Soap, Neo to Go, a coupon for free Breyers Gelato Indulgences, a Shell Rewards Card, Puffs tissues and Avon Anew Reversalist. Check back soon for reviews!

For meals this week I am going to try and make them all "clean". 

  • Clean Tuna Salad with a side of Cilantro Bean Salad
  • Cilantro Bean Salad with rice
  • Chicken Pesto "Pasta" (zucchini pasta)
  • Healthy Pizza
  • Leftovers

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Manic Monday

Make sure to check out my friends AngelaLaura and Hollie's blogs too!

It's Monday Tuesday again which means it's time for me to keep myself accountable and to share with you my meal plans for the week. 

I maintained my weight.

I feel like I am a broken record lately, I'm pretty sure me saying I'm a broken record is me being a broken record even more since I've said it a few times. 

I've hit some sort of wall, I know what I have to do, I know I can do it, I have all the tools but for whatever reason I don't do it. I keep nagging myself about it, which I think is making it even worse. I don't do well with pressure. 


Moving on...

For our meals this week...

  • BBQ at a friend's house.
  • Skinnier Crab Dip with a bunch of veggies and some crackers
  • Healthy Pizza
  • Taco Night
  • Breakfast for dinner
  • Leftovers
Hope you're all having a great week!